It’s so unfortunate that you had to find out about me the way you did. I wish I had gotten to know you as myself from the beginning. You would like me if you did! 🙂 But I had never intended to form a bond with you and, I suppose you never DID form a bond with me. That’s the trouble with the internet. You show yourself off and tell others about your life, and they form a bond with you, but they can’t, or won’t tell you about themselves so you don’t form a bond with them.
I just wish I knew why you hate me so much. Is it just because you found out I’m a man, and not a woman? Do you think I “pretended” to be a woman? I didn’t. You DO know that I told M.M. because I KNEW she would tell YOU, don’t you? I suppose I shouldn’t have done it that way. I should have told you myself. But I was too afraid of how you would react if I told you myself. I guess the result was even worse. Do you just hate all men?
Is it because you’re prejudiced towards men who sometimes wish they were a woman? I never said anything mean to you. Yeah, I screwed up with M.M. but I was just trying to protect you and I made up for it didn’t I? Isn’t she your friend on Facebook to this day?
Is it because I supposedly harassed your sister? I didn’t, you know. I was just trying to get her to stop acting in such a dangerous manner on youtube. And then she freaked out when you told her I was a man. She over-reacted and I just tried to convince her she didn’t need to be afraid of me because I didn’t want her to be afraid.
Well, anyway, I know I can’t contact you and you can’t contact me but I still wish I understood. I know you just think of me as “that stalker on the internet” but I’m actually a human being with feelings and I’m not a stalker. I just have a very hard time with somebody hating me and I really, really, really, wish I understood why.
Someday when your father is no longer your ruler, will you contact me and tell me how you felt? Will you tell me what I did that was so terrible? I will do ANYTHING I can to make up for it if you tell me, but I can’t if I don’t understand!