I was sitting at my chair in my office and all of a sudden, I KNEW, for a fact, that if I wanted to die, I could just let go and die. I almost did! I looked around and everything seemed so strange. So surreal. For a few moments I thought it would be soooo peaceful to just let it all go and die. But then I knew that my bff and her sons still need me and I fought it off. I could still do it if I wanted to and, well, maybe in the not too distant future when I think she’s ready to take care of herself………I will just let go! And die.
And nobody but she will care!